| Is it at all possible that i might be worshipping and in a sense, directing all my focus and energy toward my future mate and/or other objects of affinity? that i anticipate them more so than the kingdom of God?
Is that why i have not been given the opportunity to meet her? therefore, logically, should i give up trying to seek my mate and concentrate more on the His kingdom? So that God might see that i am mature enough to be given that opportune time. However, it is one thing to know this and another to change one's heart and accept this truthfully. To be moved by His Spirit and nothing else. For experience has taught me that man/woman carries much disappointment.
Seeing images of beauty, allowing my heart to faint towards his creation, is that in a way, allowing myself to be distracted and have a misguided goal? For certain, i know that the hope is not the image of my mate but of my Creator.
To do things well because of the Designer. To design with a heart as how He designs. To care about every little details that matter. Not because man sees it, but because He is the one who will ultimately smile or frown upon His creation's creation.
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| Throughout less than a quarter of a century of my life, i have come to realize many things. Yet i know there are many more things of which i will learn and realize throughout my brief life. The pain and anguish one endures due to personal failures, devastating events, or plain laziness, is a furthering step toward success. At times, even the kingdom of God is brought closer by one man's realization and humbling of the things which are to come, and of who we truly are and belong to. The verse that states that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance to character, and to character, hope is one that is true but is painfully subtle. It takes one maybe years to realize this and even more years to truly accept this. But when one does, the eyes of our hearts are opened. Opened to the fact that what we went have experience, the pain, the anguish, the suffering, cannot compare to what Christ went through. His suffering on the cross, which lead to his death, something that we all, or most, are afraid of, ultimately lead to something of an extreme revolution: The forgiveness of sins, an intimate connection between the Creator and the creation, and the promise of eternal life through Christ.
Whatever enemy, fear, or oneself is vexing his or her growth. It ultimately will shape that person into something beautiful or something grossly evil. Beautiful if one comes to the realization that the suffering we go through, will strengthen us. Or if we allow suffering to manipulate and destroy the gift that which God has given us.
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